Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Accomplishments

I am not one to sit down and assess what I've accomplished in a set amount of time. I go directly to ALL THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE right away.  While there is a certain amount of motivation in such an approach, there is also a lack of pretty much everything else.  How can you find satisfaction or success in your work, or really in your life,  when you never stop to actually see what it is that you have finished and how that finished project makes you feel?  So, in the spirit of a new year, and a new approach, I am going to list my accomplishments from 2012.  Because I have not had a complete mind/body transplant, I will also make a list of things I hope to accomplish is 2013 and beyond.

1. I directed my first full production, War Bride at SkyPilot Theatre. Not only did I survive, it was a commercial and critical success, garnering killer reviews and forming the basis for .....
2. The founding of my new production company, Weyward Sisters Productions, with my co-creators and dear friends from War Bride, Samantha Macher and Heidi-Marie Hostetler.
3. LOTS of choreography in almost every medium:
On stage: Working for the Production Company at The Lex Theater and The Snow Queen for Blame the Clown Productions at The Fremont Centre Stage
On the Web: Squad 85 Web Series
On Film: Surrender To The Mystery, produced by Weyward Sisters Productions.
4. Work as a performer on camera: Not as much as I would have liked, but a few cool projects: the web series hIMPERFECT, City Bus; a short for James Franco's film project at UCLA, as a dancer in my own film Surrender to the Mystery and in a wonderful anti-violence music video for UNICEF.
5. I had my first starring role on stage, in Richard Raskind's The Bridge Club at Deaf/West Theater and garnered some amazing reviews.
6. I grew as a teacher and have a wonderful group of students who are both serious and passionate about dance.
7. Outside validation: all of my work this year received wonderful reviews and even some awards.
8. I did my first Serial Killers at Sacred Fools and will be forever known there as the singing mouse. This is both immensely gratifying and slightly distressing.
9. I grew my outside businesses, jewelry design and styling, back up in a way that feels supportive of rather than destructive to my ultimate goals of creating and performing.  I feel inspired by both of these parts of my creativity once again. 
10.  I stepped out of my comfort zone and contacted complete strangers in my field who I admire and want to work with.  Two have become trusted mentors and even more importantly, friends.
11. I stuck with my personal work with Marcela, even when it has been hard and ugly and combative. I am making progress. There is so much to do, but I am putting this under accomplishment. I am a much stronger person than I was even one year ago.
12. I am on the road to some sort of financial stability. Like the above statement, there is much to do, but I am once again putting it under accomplishment. I am not there yet, but I am gaining ground and have a clearer understanding of what action needs to be taken.

On the books for the coming year:
1. More performing. Period. On the AEA stage. On film. On the small screen. On the web. And please, just one commercial would be really freaking awesome.
2. Health insurance.  Preferably through one of my performing unions.  See above.
3. I would like to direct and choreograph a fully produced musical.  I would like to direct more in general, but this is my specific goal.
4. Successful completion of the Weyward Sisters Agenda:
   -Nevada Line  (music video: as singer, choreographer, producer)
   -St. Mary's School For Girls (short film: director and producer)
   -The Matador (stage production of our future feature: Actor/dancer, co-choreographer, producer)
5. On a personal level: I am opening myself up to the possibility that I may not be completely dead inside and that a romantic relationship may be a lovely and enriching experience. Just open to the possibility.
6. I am growing my hair out.  I need to stick with it, through the ugly phase. This seems important, though I am pretty sure that it is not.
7. Increased political action.  On gun control, gay rights, education and arts accessibility.
8. To not take myself so freaking seriously all of the time.

Happy Holidays.  I wish everyone a wonderful and peaceful 2013.