Spring Showcase

So, I teach at several LA area dance schools, and this was recital (although we called it a showcase) weekend at one of the biggest. I did two pieces for my ballet dancers. Little girls, so it was all sugar and spice. They did great and I got through it. I had SO much anxiety throughout the process. Would my dances be good enough? Would my dancers do a good job? Will I ever fit in with all of the other teachers? And the answers are yes, yes and no. I never will. I will always feel on the outside, somehow separate and not good enough. But, I'll keep trying and in the meantime will tell my dancers how beautiful they are and how proud of them I am. And that will have to be enough.